It’s okay-
Is all I can say
Because for me
Okay encompasses a
Subtle stability
A smile shared
With my beloved son
The capability to
Be around others
Without the indescribable
Need to sneak out
Of my empty shell
And roam aimlessly
Around the wooded
Pastures while family
And loved ones
Giggle and visit
Because you see
My existence has
Always been an
Implacable roller-coaster
Of insidious emotions
Feeling everything at once
Thoughts, multiple conversations
Impeding through my
Fragile shell of a being
Hindering and infiltrating
My delicate tissues
Rendering me powerless
Over all emotions
Volatile, capricious and
Mercurial to say the least
Then the pendulum swings
And nothing: empty
Malevolent, angry
Longing to feel something
Show compassion, care
SOMETHING- but there’s nothing
So when I say
It’s okay- I’m okay
Please excuse my
Lackadaisical articulation
Because okay for me
Is really damn good.


About beautifulmess3025

I'll forgive you long before I forgive myself. I'll push you away while I am longing to hold you. I find myself thinking of how much you mean to me..without saying it nearly enough. My son is teaching me how to love, laugh, and live:)
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